Reality

It is so hard to think that it could happen.
To ANYONE. At ANYTIME. Good person or bad.

Loosing my uncle has been hard.
Two weeks ago today I got the call.
Two weeks ago my aunt watched her husband die as they drove to the ER.

Like I have mentioned before, I am mourning for his family.
A left behind wife and 2 sons.

Josh and I were talking a few days before about who's grandma would be the first to pass.
Unsuspecting it to be anyone else.

Just know how important it is to sat I love you every chance you get and show love in tangible ways every chance you get.
It is hard to remember sometimes but when you go through something like this, or like when I almost lost my husband, it becomes more real.

Josh and I don't currently have life insurance but we NEED to get it.
My uncle only had a small policy through his work, his family will suffer because of it.
We have decided to look into life insurance rates SOON. Especially with buying a new house soon.

Missing You

Kinda been missing you all, no comments, no time to comment to you.
I feel alone, sad little lone blogger=(

All I do is go through the house listings the realtor sends and try to figure out which ones we want to see and not want to see.
Not as fun as blogging.

I come up with posts in my head and then I sit down at the computer and I cannot even remember them.

I really hope to be back to the normal schedule and post more.
Because I really do miss you dear blog friends;)

I have a award from 2 of you and need to say THANKS and pass it along...be on the look out.

Maybe even some house updates (which there are none right now).

Well gotta go E is begging to play some xbox 360.

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Missed

I have had barely anytime to catch up with my blogs or even keep this one up.
Between the unexpected passing of my uncle and the unexpected possibility of buying our 1st house (within 6 weeks) was very overwhelming at first.

I am doing better.
SO much to do and so little time.

There are so many houses for sale, and so many areas to consider, it is driving my head crazy.

But I missed you all and thought Id say HELLO.
I actually deleted almost 200 blog posts from my google reader and feel so bad, but I just couldn't keep up, I didn't feel like being overwhelmed and reading all of them.
So I started afresh and will try to keep up now.

So don't forget about me, I am still here.
I will leave you with a better post tomorrow, I think.

5 hours

....till we go look at a few houses=)
(so excited, but have vowed to not get ahead of myself)

The funeral for my uncle was last night.
Mourning is not done, but the funeral is over and it is time to heal...I still mourn for his family, and realize at some moment it is true, he is gone.
So sudden and emotional.

I'll be back in commission soon, I hope.

Another morning of bad news

Although it wasn't as devastating nor as soon as I woke up, but my husband informed me that our landlord called yesterday with some news.

The divorce is final and he lost the house he is currently living in.
Which means he may need to live here, in our home (his house), which means we would need to leave within 6 weeks.

OMG.

We have wanted a house for so so long. But our finances are not quite in order, we'd be able to afford it, but our credit isn't so pretty and we don't have a big down payment (if one at all).

I am hyperventilating thinking about it all on top of the death of my uncle.
Can you even buy a house and everything in 6 weeks??

Pray for us this week, we need it.

A bad start to my morning

Please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers.
My uncle died suddenly of a heart attack this morning.
He was 51.

Come join me

I haven't announced it yet, but I am now a contributing blogger at MOM SPARK

THIS Sunday the 19th is my first scheduled post titled ::Hello Sugar::.

You don't want to miss it.
Come by and say HI, you may want to stick around it is a great blog!

Have a great weekend!

It's Coming Out

My days seem filled with defiance, anger, battle of wills, messes and then depression.

As E gets older it seems like each age is harder and harder.
I love the kid so much.
We DO have good days, we had a whole week of good and now 2 days in a row of HORRIBLE. It seems to be stirring up all this anger that I didn't realize was inside of me.
(Now I am seeing where he gets it)

I heard something a month or so ago that I have gleaned from, I have used it for me, for Merci, and from Ethan.

What comes out of our mouth, or comes out in action, is coming from our heart.
So if I am displaying anger, or saying inappropriate things these emotions are coming from within.
I need to change my heart.
Hearing that and now seeing all this anger come out of me and out of E has been something very hard for me to deal with. BUT, it has been good in ways too.
I am recognizing hurt, that I wasn't able to recognize before.
I am confronting it, (slowly but surely).

I can OVERCOME.

REVELATION 21:7
"He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his
God and he shall be My son.

I hope this road is short!

What if a book said....

My son has been showing signs of anger issues for awhile now, and it has been getting worse.

I bought some books from Scholastic that were about controller anger issues. It was a 3 pack. I though this could be a start to talking about his anger.

I like 1 out of 3 books.

Here is how one went...

Mad, mad, mad!

Nicholas took veronica. (From pics you can see a baby took his sisters doll)
He sucked her hair.
Yech!

Veronica (the doll) hates baby spit.
I hate baby spit, (sister telling story)
I hate Nicholas!

Uh-oh.
Veronica got a time out.
Uh-oh.
Me, too.

We have to think and be sorry.

But, we don't think we are sorry.

We think we still hate Nicholas.

Veronica thinks that Nicholas should disappear.
Me, too.

Ta-da!
No more Nicholas. (she puts a blanket on her brother.)

Uh-oh.
No more Nicholas?

But sometimes Nicholas is silly.
Veronica likes that.
Me, too.

Nicholas smells nice after a bath.
Veronica likes that.
Me, too.

And he gives good hugs...for a little brother.
Veronica likes that, too.

Veronica thinks she needs to think some more.
Me, too.

Veronica thinks she doesn't really hate baby spit. OR Nicholas.
I think Veronica is sorry.
Me, too.

I think. (As brother pulls doll from sisters and sucks on her hand).

SO...remember the red bold big letters are from the book, not my addition.

I have a problem with this book, a big problem.
Yet I understand why some may not.

Hate is an emotion we all deal with, a word we say about stuff, but not usually people.
My son has been using this word a lot, and I don't tolerate it.
He tells me he hates me when he is angry.
It hurts even though he doesn't mean it and is angry when he uses it.

Why would I want to read this word to my kid, even if it isn't something he says?

I understand anger is an emotion, but there should be NO reason to use the word hate to help a kid understand how to control his anger.

I am so upset at this book.
I will be calling scholastic, since another out of the three told about a boy who was packing up his stuff to run away (why would I want my kid to know that is an option at the age of 4???)
This book is a series that E loves and we read a lot of, I was very disappointed.

The other book was perfect and exactly what I was looking for!

What are your views about the book I shared???
NO, that book is ridiculous, Yes, I'd read that to my kid.

Brady's Blankets: DONE

I was so excited to make blankets for this wonderful organization.



I went out that day got the material and had my blankets done the same day.
Then I realized I did the knotting wrong and wanted to fix it.
I put the blanket in the closet so the kitties wouldn't contaminate it, and then I forgot about it=(

So here is my finished blanket...so soft a fuzzy!



The other side is that solid pink color.

I made 2 but gave one to the couple that is living with us and expecting their
1st girl in December.

So I only have 1 to send at the moment, but plan on sending some more in the future.
Click Here to see others blankets!

You can send blankets whenever you want, it isn't too late.!!

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Cedar Point

Josh and I went to Cedar Point last night.
We had previously bought cheap tickets and needed to use them by Nov 2, when the park closes for the season.
It ended up being us and his family (8 of us in all).
It was fun, but as with any large group, it is hard to get too much in especially since they were only open 6-midnight.
I only rode 3 rides, all good ones so I won't complain.

I thought I might die (seriously was shaking like never before & hallucinating about not being able to breathe), but I went for the 1st time and it was the best ride ever!!
Here are the stats

I also went on The Maverick for the first time, it was a wild crazy ride!
You have no time to get your self ready because it takes off and goes FAST up the huge hill, I was NOT ready for the. It was FUN though.
And kuddos to my SIL (12) and BIL (11) who rode this at there 1st roller coaster ever!

Then onto The Raptor which I love but made me incredibly sick, my head equilibrium is still off today, I hope I am ok.

So may emotions

So many emotions is ONE day is hard to handle.

A huge God thing (will tell the story soon), a hurtful email, TWO good long talks, & a library date with another coupon crazed woman. LOL.

My mind is going crazy.

Need to go to bed, but waiting for hubby to finish the biggest estimate he has ever seen.
(that is another God thing...he is working overtime for us lately!)

Gonna go to bed now.

If my mind will calm down.

My Girl

Usually it is E who has the funny things to say/do it was M today!

After school we saw a pimped out Jeep drive by (we are partial o Jeep's since I drive one, and because daddy likes to point out pimped out ones!) Anyway...right on top was a HUGE dead dear.
M started freaking out....

M: "Oh my, Oh my gosh, when I am president I will make that illegal, no killing those ::start baby talk voice here:: poor baby deers, oh those poor things....wawawa" (drama queen?? YEP)
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When M was looking through her homework assignment books, she saw that it said
Yom Kippur starts at sundown. Her being a child who cannot be left out of ANYTHING, insisted to daddy that we celebrate Yom Kippur. Don't get me wrong I have no problem with Jewish holidays, but since we are not Jewish, me nor my husband really knew what it was they celebrated and how. I proceeded to look it up on the good old net and found out the not so desirable way in which it is celebrated (she was not interested in not eating for the whole day), she wasn't interested, she was u=interested in finding out where we could find a pool to cleanse in though. That girl, I know she was thinking ...POOL PARTAYYYY!!

Wordless Wednesday

Do these work?

Does anyone have first hand experience with these...

magnetic bracelet?

I have been wanting to see if they will help my knee joint pain.

I then saw some at a local craft store for $2 and almost tried it, but then realized a cheap imitation probably wasn't gonna work.

So let me know your input or experiences.

This time of year my joints are really bad, I wake up in the middle of the night with excrutiating pain...and I'm only 27, I hope it doesn't get worse as I get older=(

Miss my baby girl

Today we went to my Aunts house for "dessert day."

Elephant ears, smores, blueberry cobbler, my grandma's awesome cake, chocolate dipped strawberries....we did have spaghetti and nachos in there somewhere too
(yep, right to the thighs, I know..I'm gonna walk tomorrow, I am.)

Anyway, she has all these pictures of my kids on the wall when they were little, I mean itty bitty, in like I cannot believe that was my kid.
Pictures from when E was born and M was holding him, staring at him adoringly
(that didn't last long)...
They were so tiny and sweet.
I realized how much I miss dressing up my little girl, if she was still that little and took my fashion advice (which she DOES not) I'd be able to buy her stuff like these adorable things from
Tea Collection...oh my, it is sooooo CUTE.

Someday she will listen to me when I tell her something in cute or not so cute right??
I didn't loose that forever did I?

The struggle

...to loose weight and look good.

Why is it such a struggle?

It is something we all want, yet it is so hard to be motivated to do it.
12 pounds or so and I'd be so excited and Id be able to fit into all my pants without the sausage look.

My walking plan hasn't been too bad, but I didn't go at all last week=(
Between the rain and just being lazy, OH actually E had a field trip Monday and I went with, so I blame it on that, messing up my week=)
Good excuse, now I feel better.

I won't have to turn to the newest weight loss product trend after all;)

Wish me luck for this week!

Wordless Wednesday