Thursday, February 19, 2009

Too much pain

Over the years of blogging, I have realized something.
There is SO much pain out there.
I have read through so many people's experiences, challenges and heartbreaks, it tears me apart.
In my own little world, difficulties arise, deaths happen and heartaches happen too, but not so much and not too often, you know?
I have lost family members (my uncle recently), my friends experience miscarriages, and infertility, people around me loose loved ones in tragic and unexpected ways, I have issues to deal with in my own family, drugs, alcohol, suicide attempts.
I deal with it and get over it.

But since I have been blogging, I have had to hear about people loosing babies much more frequently than Id like to, people loosing babies full term, people loosing loved ones to cancer, children suffering from sickness....the list goes on.
I even know of a person who stopped blogging because of this issue.
The heartache is too much.

And to clarify, yes we hear of good things too.
Miracles, people helping others, praise reports, the list goes on here too.

I just wish I was as effected by the good and I was the bad.

I just read about a little 7 year old that died this year due to cancer, and I just cannot fathom my little girl, or boy going through that, it just isn't fair.
I cry a plead with God to never take my children away.
But the truth is NO ONE is exempt from these things happening. It could happen to us, to my best friends kids, to me.

It is scary. But my HOPE is in Him.


Wendy said...

I know...

I almost just got out of the blogging world. I just felt like every time I logged on something so horrible was happening. It was beginning to effect me so I wanted to step back. Then I realized how blessed I was to be there to support these families in some small way.

Really makes me see how truly blessed I have been.

amy said...

this is a tough one. we don't want to live in a bubble, yet we aren't meant to feel every pain and carry every burden.

FlipFlop Mom said...

yes we have to keep our Hope with him and remember that our kids are out on loan to us....
I've read many a blogs as well that have heartache and sadness... and I read many that bring hope and miracles...

Renata said...

No one wants to experience pain. Even Christ said, "Father, take this cup from me, but not my will but thine". But you summarized it well that our hope should be is in HIM.

Not really through blogs, but I have benefited a great amount by having friends share in their grief. It has been my comfort in my darkest hours. I so appreciate them opening up to me when they did. God strengthened them and that in turn strengthened me through it all.

Heartache is real and comes in many different ways. The question isn't why me, but why not me? I don't deserve anything more or less than the next person. I fall short of the glory of God. So all that I do have and appreciate in life is truly a gift, not a right.

James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning.

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