Keeping it REAL

I usually don't have stories of how much I enjoy being at home with my kids and how we have so much fun and how we are a perfect family, because, it isn't like that for me. I know I wouldn't be able to work and then come home and be a mom, that be too much. I wish there was an in between.

I love my children with all that I am, and do way too much for them, but I just have a hard time enjoying the hard times.

I have had an awful day today. AWFUL. Ethan has pushed every button and been defiant in EVERY way possible. My head hurts, I cannot think straight. This is NOT fun or enjoyable in any way shape or form...well I guess it is easier to enjoy Merci, since she hasn't gotten on my wrong side yet.

I know I am truly blessed, I HAVE kids, I CAN stay at home (barely, but we manage), I HAVE a family.....

The list goes on. I just have a hard time. I am not sure why.
There is some wall I need to break through or something.

The days are not always like this, there are sunshine and rainbow days, but I find them few and far between.

Maybe I have a hard time realizing all my own flaws when I see them come out in my kids, maybe that is what makes it so hard.

I feel like all I do is correct, correct, correct.
I feel like a monster, I feel like a mean mom,
will I ever see FRUIT???

His first day!

Ethan's first day of pre-school was today!

silly face...

crooked face...

Ethan was very nervous this morning, even claiming he didn't want to go to school, even though he has been excited for weeks. He needed his mommy to hold his hand for a little bit, and finally even let me leave=)

paying close attention...

by his cubby

Then time he was there went by really FAST, but I was happy to see how his day went.
It went great and he was very insistent that I take him back "omorrow"=)

On another note:
Awhile back I decided I was going to walk or jog while E was in school.
I don't want to look like a sausage in my pants this Fall/Winter, so walking it is!
There are a few nearby parks that will work perfectly!

I am happy to report I am 1 for 1, even though it was cold, windy and almost raining!
I did it and hope to continue!

Let me say being distracted by worship music from my iphone, I was able to walk, check my e-mail, text and check the forcast and the 20 minutes flew past, I almost did the walk twice, but my new shoes were feeling ouchy on my feet.

Going here....

http://www.wkyc.com/news/local/news_article.aspx?storyid=96208&catid=45

Going here on Saturday...YIPEE!!

Journey Concert

I am so excited that I went to the Journey concert last night!


(brother Jon and girlfriend Colleen)


(Dad and Mom)

It all started with my brother's girlfriend who is obsessed with Journey, she goes to ALL journey concerts and even all Journey cover band concerts.


My aunt was talking about being interested in going, and we figured since she'd be in town this weekend we would all go the concert instead of our usual Dave and Buster's trip.


(Colleen, Jon and my Aunt Marcy)

Cheap Trick, Heart and Journey played last night.
I kinda was like, why am I going to this, I have no idea who these bands are....

Little to my surprise I DID!


(Aunt Marcy and ME!)

Cheap Trick...

I want you to Want me
I need you to need me!
Yep, you know it too!!!

The Dream Police, they are alive in my head, the dream police...

See you do know who they are!!
Their first album was in 1932...they are OLD, but still sounded pretty good!

Heart

Well considering I was lost the whole time they sang...yep my wonderful drunk brother left me in line for drinks and I was wandering all over the jam packed lawn looking for my group
(which was about 20 people)...I was right close to them, just a bit lower.
I seriously was about to cry.

They were great though, sounded amazing for being such stinking old ladies.
One of the most popular ones is...
What about Love.

JOURNEY


(Paul, Alec (cousin), Andy)

We got my cousin Alec a ticket for graduation, and his mom bought some for his friends!
Alec loves Journey also!

I didn't even realize how many songs I knew by them.
I knew I knew some, but I knew most of them.
Look 'em up you'd be surprised!

It was so FUN, even though the crowd was MUCH older than I.
It was a sold out show, and a fun and crazy time.

So who want to come to New Kids on the Block concert with me next month????

My friend Terry

When I saw this I immediately thought of my friend Terry.

bacon of the month club

Terry if I had more money I would definitely buy this for you.
I know how much you like bacon. LOL.
There is no lie that there is something out there for everyone (especially on the internet).
Maybe this will make it to your Christmas list, or maybe not.

What a perfect gift, you know the recipient won't be getting doubles=)